Kisah Peminat Hlovate yg Terluka huk.

Hye salam~

Do u know Hlovate? yes im one of her fan. Her ke? x kesah la kan. anyway baru bace blog die tadi. n there is one part yang buat i mcm x percaya, is that really H yang tulis .

Kalo la korg ni peminat Hlovate ni korg akan perasan die punye trademark yg tulis 'May Allah Bless' anywhere die menulis. and yup i like that phrase n i do ikot jugak dlm post2 i before this lau korg perasan kan . its like mcm mendoakan org kan? setuju x? da lame gak x bace blog H ni n tadi bile bace there is one part yg mcm H ni x suke org lain mcm tulis cmtu gak coz that phrase mcm ade memory between her n her bestfriend mase sekolah dulu. hum...its like mcm x suke org lain ikot bende yg baik, ye x? sorry to say..mcm x patot..huk but hye yahh. im still her fan just little bit offend ng ape die tulis tu kan. i know u r famous sis, but you have to take care with many heart since u dah ade ramaiii fans. kalau pn u kate u x pilih pun untuk jadi popular kn but bile u dah jadi novelis hebat, u have to accept that...

i remember longgggg ago bile kat page H ade org tulis sgt teringin nak tau sape H ni, laki or pompuan, the admin reply the comment somehow the bunyi is like this laa,

"sgt kelakar bile org sangat nk tau siapa Hlovate ni, lelaki or perempuan. sila hormat privacy H, ape yg penting tulisan die, bukan siapa die..."

n i do reply that with panjang berjela punye komen lau x silap ade kt post bwh2 ni i letak... is that funny kite minat sumone n nk tau psl die? hrm.... i dunno if i salah la kan.. tp lau xnak dilambung ombak, jgn berumah di tepi pantai.. betul er ek peribahasa aku ni huhu...

agak2 kalo ade peminat tegar Hlovate bace entry aku ni mau kena maki an aku..but im just telling u whats really in my heart, aku suke novel2 die. sgt suke n sume aku kumpul. tp tu la . sebagai peminat, aku agak terasa~ no more may Allah bless after this will be replace by "Allah Bless you" .. n yes2 aku xkan claim ni aku punye phrase. bai~

Ikea tyme~

Salam.

Im havin my last final exam starting next week. 25 April 2011. uhuk last? insyaAllah. pray for me peeps.

Last monday i went to ikea. with fana, helmi n farid. n oyeahh hepy sgt sbb first time g ikea. ahaha. poyo je an.hik. biase ar mmg best je kn tengok katil, sofa santek2..lau dapat hias umah sndri cmtu kn best kan.hee~

For study week my xtvt just stayin diam2 dalam bilik baca buku. (baca sgt la kan) eheh. now da rasa tergedik2 sgt nk g pwtc nk g bukfair tp haish saba je ni sbb nk exam kn. kena beringat2 nati da setel sume after antar thesis hard cover ha kau amik aku nk g ke bulan pn xpe knn knnn.

Perasaan beberapa hari je lagi bergelar student ni ade la mcm biasa je. xde la hapy sgt, xde x hepy sgt sbb kn xtualy jd student ni best gak. ade byk mase, hidup pn org support kn da lepas ni kau tanggung idop sndr kn mcm x best je kan bunyi nye huhu.. whatever pn never ever give up. dats my kelebihan since dulu until now. walopn aku masyaAllah jenis pemalas nye manusia tp lau nk buat, biar smpai habes ok?

Ape cm ngarut2 je entry kali ni an? nahhh amik kasi tgk gamba2 terlarang masa kt ikea aritu. keke. manaleh letak kt fesbuk jatohhhh saham ai yg x berape nk tinggi ni kn hihi..klabai.

Fana Tajima ng Hanna Nazwin

Baby, ni katil ni kte letak kt bilik tidur tetamu ea~

~Friends~

Alolo..shukenyeeew~

437 Days. Never End.

Its no longer 437 days actually. But today its 490 days. ^_^

This is the last entry bout this story .. the previous entry is here, here, and here.

I don't want to wrote anything anymore about what had happened after 20th November 2010. Who else yang tahu, then u know. But i just want to keep it for myself.

What should i say? I just can't let him go from my life. People may say im crazy, stupid and anything they want .. but try to put urself in my shoes, then u will know. God just have something to keep us together until now, thats enough for me.

I'll take care of my heart by myself. I just hope and pray for the best. If i try to forget and avoid this feeling for a thousand times pun, i can't. Not like im not trying so hard, but it is just impossible for us.

He's the one that i want and he will always be. until when? i don't know. Maybe after i know that he's really happy with his choice. I'll stay single until then,maybe.. yes, u may say im moron, stupid, crazy and anything but this is my life and i choose my own path to live.

~Dolphie~

Kesayangan~

Mempunyai sedikit masa terluang setelah menyiapkan thesis. yeay. Dan merasakan ingin bersikap sedikit jiwang2 di malam ini. menggodek gamba2 di setiap folder dan mengeluarkan gambar2 yang tersayang. (ni akibat convertkan abstrac td jd bahasa melayu tu bahasa skema je)

Sila la lihat edisi mari layan gambar sampai muntah. setiap sorg yg mukanya dalam entry ni adalah kesayangan saya. menceriakan hidup saya. lav ya'all yawww. oh yek, sifat2 gamba adalah berterabur dan tidak mengikut sebarang tarikh, masa tempat atau keadaan. ai malas nk susun.hihi.

2 org wani yg mcm bajet2 comel gitu.

sory la babe.. gamba ng korg x byk rupanya. lagi2 ulang gamba yg ni.hee.

raya 2009 di rumah indar. kwn2 smka sesat kawan uitm sorg. hehe.

rasanya kami ni mmg dah berkawan sejak dalam perut mak kami.

gambar senget menjadi bukti kesengetan kanak2 microb upm clas 2011

10.10.2010. melemaskan diri ng microbians di port dickson

saya nampak seusia dgn mereka.kan annn?

berjimba2 di dalam lab physic chem. x siap lab repot, tiru aje.

skandal dlu kini dan slamanya.

warga2 yang mengajar aku menjadi wanita gila. haha!

kamu, kamu kamu dan kamu. syg kamu sume!

pilih gamba ni sbb xda die~ haha. syg emerald.

microbians mampu menghasilkan jelitawan.

microbiologist n biochemist.

kembar lain mak lain ayah

Hee. xde la byk mana pn gamba. ramai je lagi kesayangan yg x letak gamba kt sni. next entry la. kang kalo intenet korg slow sgt smpai esok x leh loading. haha! entry tahun lepas pn da ade letak pix jgk da. Kesayangan bagi aku bukan la sahabat baik yang harus melekat sepanjang masa.. tp org2 dalam gamba kt atas ni pernah walaupn sekali bagi secebis kebahagian dalam hidup aku. cheewah.

Aa.. lg satu. mesti la banyak gamba pompuan. ai kan baik. mana kwn dgn lelaki sgt. haha! lain kali la ai share gamba lg ek. ktqbye!

437 Days. I am Stupid.

This is the third part of my 437 days story.

From the last episode, i've wrote about how happy i am to be with him during that short period of time. during October there's sumthing happened. U said that u want to reconcile back with ur ex gf .. i know about that accidently ..or else i will never know about it at all and will just keep pin a hope on u .. I remembered when i promise to u that i will change and i want to try my best to be with u .. u said, ' ok..n i akan cuba sygkn u mcm i pernah sygkn dia dulu..'

N u r not success .. n me too failed to changed for u..because this is who i am.. as i made a decision to just away from u after my final exam end.. u said, 'No..don't do dat..if i were u i akan berusaha untuk bersama dgn org yg i suka selagi die belum sah jadi milik sesiapa..' things are easier said than done, ey ? I just try to forget everything n concentrate on my final exam .. u said that u want to settle all the things with ur ex gf after her final exam done so i have to wait until that too.. am i stupid ? the answer is a big YES. saya sgt bodoh sebab sayangkan seseorang yang tak pernah nampak apa yg saya korbankan untuk die. ape yang saya sanggup buat hanya untuk die. Im a stupid girl. really. thats what i kept saying to him when we'r still together.

6 Nov 2010. its the date that i don't want to remember but i can't forget. Sweet memories but hurt to think about .. .

15 Nov 2010. your birthday. my wish is late. but i do call and sing a birthday song to you. =)

U said that weekend u wanna come to KL. u have to meet someone . n i said that i wana give ur birthday present.. u have to meet me even just for a second. n u said, InsyaAllah.. u can't promise..

Im not feel ease about this. I ask u again about who are you going to meet this weekend. n u do admit that u gonna meet her. HER. n u ask me. am i sad.. oh how am i supposed to answer that. what can i say? I just reply.. OK... but i really2 want to meet u n give ur birthday present. please.

20 Nov 2010. I've already pack ur birthday present nicely. i want u to accept it from my hand with the smile on your face. i just want to see u. evento if u will just throw away my present in front of her, i don't care. i just want to see ur face. ur eyes, ur eyesbrow, ur cheek, ur hair. Am i stupid? the answer is again.. a big YES. i am .. i know..

Im already at KL at that time with my sister. n i asked u to text me when everything is done..

you : Awin, sorry i can't meet u. mcm x sempat.

me: eh why? where are you now?

you: x sempat awin. im now on my way to pwtc.

me: oh..its ok. im headin to pwtc ok? u wait for me there. i just want to give this then i balik la ok..?

you: i x boleh jumpe u awin. die .. x bagi .

me: huh? y? knape plak? u dah couple dgn die?

you: yup awin. bru tadi. die accept i semula. i dah couple dgn die. sory i x boleh jumpe u dah.

me: ......

i don't want to remember any other text after that because its just a curse and makian yg tak sepatutnya i keluarkan. im sorry for that. im just not me at that time. im almost fall masa nk naik tren kat masjid jamek. luckily ade org tolong pegangkn. im just walking n walking heading straight to upm with a tears on my face. n then i realised that im stuck at ktm station's bandar tasik selatan. i just sat there n cried. i dunno where else to go n what else to do. the feeling at that time i should say that.. i dun feel my ground anymore .. im just everywhere .. crying for a things that i know will happen a long time ago ....

Thanks to both of u for making me realise how stupid i am. No its not your fault..not her fault either.. its just me who just born to be stupid to know that u will never love me.