The Very Last Msg

its been a while since my last post. ketahuilah bahawasanya banyak benda yg bermain dalam kepala. nk tulis, nk cerita tapi. malas. malas. penyakit yang tak ada ubat kecuali mati. dan blog ini cuma akan dianakkandungkan bila tgh susah hati, nak bercerita n berkisah. bila masalah habis, dah ceria gembira maka blog ini akan dianaktirikan semula..

but since aku kadang2 perasan ada hit masuk blog ni, jadi, ada la org yg sudi baca ye dak? hihi. tak sangka tau.. thanks la kepada sapa yg sudi baca ni.

Anyway, tadi aku ckp akan tulis blog bila susah hati kan? hm. let me ask u this. what will u feel if korang dapat tahu orang yg korang sayang akan bernikah, just malam sebelum dia nikah? what will u feel? betrayed? heartbreaking? rasa nak mati? golek2 badan kat railway station tunggu train dtg gilis?

YUP. thats how i feel. A week ago laa. been with him for 5 years. since I am 23. korang bleh kira la umur aku kn? ces. I dont know why I cant see its coming. weh nikah wei. nikah. benda besar kot apsal aku boleh tak perasan. Just a night before nikah i really heard it from his mouth. klo b4 that just mcm gurau2, lawak2. How would i know it was a serious matter u dumbass!! you should give me the invitation card, n I can kill u first before the majlis. 

To be honest, I was like meroyan jga la for a few days. this was the second time i break up. but this is bad laaa. I even ask him to cancel the nikah thing! oh maiiii gaddd. stupid me. benda ni mcm tengok dlm drama n i will said to org yg kena tinggal tu 'woi dah la move on, org da xnak, dh kawen pn jgn la buat muka tak malu lagi!'

Hah. bila kena kat batang hidung sndr, u will know how its feel. Move on? apa tu? tak tahu?

I never want to disturb anyone marriage but I am hurt. i kept text him even after he became someone husband. T.T stupid me ey? trust me. its so hard. HARD. i need time. Until his last msg he ask me to go kill myself and never come back.

Period.

What? Come again? yes. he said that. he even said that he already slept with that girl so i can back off. 

That moment I feel like been slap hard. by anynomous. hehe. Whyyy I should cry because of this kind of creature, O Allah. Now I can find the hikmah of this thing. I can forget him easily just because of that last msg. Enough said.