Today is not a fairytale.

This is for someone that i've known for 100 days.

You. are one of the best thing that ever happened in my life.
I do appreaciate u. Really.
U make me smile. make me laught. make me feel better. make me feel good to know someone like u.
Eventho sometime u also make me cry..
Dunno what will happen in future. But. For now.
I still wana be by your side. No matter what.
Thank you.

I got only four minutes to cry.

anda, anda dan anda..pernah terjatuh x? sakit kan, an? x kesah la jatuh apa pun..katil ke, basikal ke..still..we can feel the pain kan?

now..im talking about another 'jatuh'....sakitnya..Tuhan ajea yang tahu..its something that can blow ur mind away. take ur moral down and ur kewarasan is no longer at the right place. bad.it is.

yup. tajuk kat atas mmg ada kena mengena dgn entry. i got only four minutes to cry. and let all my sadness out.just in four minutes. kenapa? heh...tak perlu.diceritakan.

knapa ek? aku asyik buat entry ala2 jiwang+oksida+carbon+karat+terlebih gula sekarang nie?

yea..yea..mmg.mmg la tuan punya blog ni dah 'terjatuh'... teruk sgt jatuhannya sampai tak boleh nak bangun2 dah. tersungkur agaknya.. erm.. owh. org yang die 'terjatuh' tue..?? hurm..dunno wether die tau or x.. but. i know he won't care much...

head over heels. dats the word. even if die bunuh org depan aku skrg ni pun, aku akn backing die dulu. n cari the reasons why he's doing dat in a first place. i won't blame him. even if he is doing something stupid pun skrg ni, aku akn cuba n cuba untuk faham knape die buat cmtu. n again. i won't blame him. it this normal? or is this just me?

click. pings. and pain.

clicks is like a switch on. pings is like something happen suddenly. n pain. its everytime when he is in my mind. which is.all.the.time.

i need to go. n i have to go. but like what i said. its love. n its something that take ur kewarasan away. dun blame me.




owh. lah. tidak2... ini bukanlah org yang dimaksudkan aku 'terjatuh' tu...haha...suspen eh? ini ialah my bestesfren. n yup2. syg him so much.. =) inche Muhammad Fahmi Idris. spent a sweet.sunday.evening.together. n again ye kwn2.. my bestfren since 6 years ago. die tau aku tgh ting tong nie, so he come here n gimme lil bit of hiburan..hehe.

to famie. thanx ek.thanx2. the wayang plus the secret recipe plus ur cheese cake at least make me feel much better for dat time. now. serabut balik.. T_T

final exam is just in three weeks. if i have a gut. i will just say. hye u.go away from my mind n dun come back here. u r just a thief. a liar. n ungrateful people who did not have any right to make me felt the way i feel rite now. right here. tepat in my heart. (ckp sambil tangan tunjuk2 kat hati.haha)

p/s im not suitable to u. im not for u. we just dun have the chemistry. WRONG ANSWER.

my wonderwall.

3 post in three days a row..hambik ko. muntah2 la baca blog aku..hahaa..

salam~

sapa suruh aku free sgt tetiap hari pas subuh. mmg xde keja la~~

ok lah. pendek je entry nie. tribute to lalala~~ ngaa~( jgn la die baca, jap g ngamuk la die)

cerita die pendek jea. aku sgt lapar.di kala pukul 5.30 pg. guling2 da perut bunyi lagu irama trash. xleh tahan. msg org tu. die tak tido lagi. cakap la lapar. die pn lapar. kul 6 pagi. die kuar g beli mee goreng sama milo ais kat maulana. ngaa. so. aku sarapan kul 6.45pg hari ni. thanx u kat org tu. terharu gile. aa. sapa die? boleh bgtau. tp pastu. kna bunuh ko la. haha.
(my wonderwall. coz selamatkn aku dr kelaparan pg2 ni.huhu)

end~

G.iL. A.

call me conservative or what. but. for me. sayang n kasih tu bukan something yang boleh dijual beli. n diberi sesuka hati. its precious. n dats y. i fall again just after TWO years being single.

yeah yeah. i know im 24. n most of my sebaya frens wether already have a plan for their future, mostly dah two is better than one la kan. but for me. im ok with my situation for now. plus. its my life. so, kenapa kamu2 dan kamu juga nak sibuk2?

to find someone, its not easy. n its not me who just spew the word Lo** to sesuka hati. for me. we fall once. n we also get married once.

tp. of course la. we can fall for more than one time. but it will never be the same as the very first one. (owh. sudah peningkah??)

aku pun xtau apsal aku masuk channel berkasih.sayang ni pepagi cmni. hahaa...

maybe sebab. smlam aku pergi office biotech 1 n again ternampak org tu..duh. rasa bersalah pun ada. tp. as i said. aku x boleh nak suka if. aku mmg x suka. faham x wahai inche??big SORRY k..plus. i've already gave u a chance. n ther's no more chance after that.. no matter with wat reasons..

once i said sayang, i will hold that rasa n word for how long i could take. even my heart being hurt n hurt again, i'll just hang on sampai aku rasa hati aku dah xleh bear lagi dah. then. i'll go. being hurt by nabil, it took me a few years before i really2 let him go. sampai aku rasa rasa sakit yang die bagi tu dah melebihi rasa happy yang die pernah bagi.. ~

tu la. my bestfie ckp. ko ni sbenarnya ada hati ke x awin? boleh lagi ko hang on? just let go ok. he never worth it to be lo** by u. ko x rasa sakit ke??
aku jawab la. aku. mmg cmni. heartles. coz word syg tu aku x leh nak kasi pada org lain lagi....

ok. sudah lah aku membuka pekung kat dada pepagi buta nie. i better sambung tidor now. arini. totally free. nak kuar g bukfair lg. tp. org tu xdpt nak teman sebab de hal plak...sedih ok pakcik hazwan T_T

p/s patot la.. its PMS time. dr semalam rasa dah pelik2. nak maki hamun sume org yg senyum2 kat aku.haha. sory guys. its not my fault. its just the cycle.. so abaikan this entry yg dibuat masa emosi rasa mcm tgh turun naik like a roller coster wakaka......=P

Love.Life.Me.

salam..~ been a while since last post..huhu.. busy lol.. this march mcm2 bende ada..haish2....marilah aku story skit ape2 event yg berlaku sepanjang minggu lepas nie....

okeh. on 12th march..my bro nan sorang tu dah selamt bergelar someone's hubby.. meninggalkan aku solo keseorangan..huuu.. T_T congrate to Ahmad Sajidin n Norhuda...moga2 berbahagia melayari rumahtangga sampai ke syurga..Insyaallah...(anyone wana take me as wifey?? =P)

apasala laa u tutup mata nie ajib oii..tau la panas, yg g pilih baju kaler2 panas maha gitu apsalnya..huhu.. this pix masa majlis sanding2 on 13th march 2010. (pengapit die sumpah gila hensem) anyway. sedih ke ek? err..sikit la..huhu T_T

u r 25 n im 24. spent all the time since chilhood together. playing n fighting. n fighting again.eheh~ not so close when u were in UUM n im also in Uitm. been busy with all life thingy. but now. we are ok-ok.. all the help dat u gave me, i'll remember that, ok? hutang budi dibawa mati..huhu. n all all allll the money u spend to me, thanxx u so much for that..(more pix at fb k..)

okeh..next is... my along's birthday..!! on 15th march..besday yang ke berapa along? hehe...disebabkan inche along ni ialah tua 20 tahun dari aku, makanya sila lah kira berapa umurnye yek..hehe.....

along aku ialah.. Puan Liza Hazimah bt Musa. guru disiplin yang ditakuti oleh semua pelajar dan pekerja kat Sek Men Langgar, Alor Star..SEMUA yea...termasuk ngn pengetua sekali takut ke along..hahaa... tp dun wory la along. umur u berapa2 pun u still maintain muda jek.. =P

nak bagi wish..moga2 dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki..diberkati hidup dan berbahagia la di samping suami n anak2 sampai ke syurga...aminn... n all the nasihat2 n ceramah2 tanpa tajuk tu akan la adik ingat sampai bebila yekk..~~

okeh..next is...birthday seorang inche nie..the pix was taken by fon, so not very cantik la..

besday inche ini ialah pada 17th march 2010.. sweet 24 to inche hasnul naim. ngaa. die ialah makhluk yang boleh bagi nasihat kejam kat aku tanpa sebarang keraguan lagi. terima kasih ye inche naim. ko mmg la kawan terbaik. uwekk =P

wish u happy healthy life..moga2 terus menerus kaya n boleh belanja aku seadanya pasni..~
jgn kawen cepat2 lah. nati aku xda membe nak g raya2..huhu..ko tunggu aku kawen dulu la since aku pun dah dnga nasihat ko xnak have any relationship selagi x abes blaja ni kan.. lala~~

n lastly......

xde..mender pon...hehe..just nak tunjuk a pix...

feel like wana give something to someone..but xtau ape nak bagi.. so tgh lepak2 ngn cik hasnatul hazwani..a few days b4 valentine kot... nampak la pair2 of keychain nie.. n most of the keychain mmg jiwang tahap x hengat lol.. bentuk hati sebelah2 la..kunci n mangga bentuk hati la... warghhh... ada ke manusia2 jiwang cmtu dalam dunia nie... haha... (aku mmg heartles bab cmni.sory ek)

so setelah dibelek2 sesedap rasa, hanya pair ni jek yg cam sesuai.. none meaning..just a guy n gurl.. =) plus its cute... so the other pair da diberi kt org tu.. n yg the gurl punye, aku letak kt porch hp....

so. setel sudah event untuk bulan ini... yang penting. aku mmg tgh rasa down skit skrg ni coz byk keje. n rasa malas yang di tahap yg maha melampau. sume benda pn malas..adehhh... ape nak jadi nie haaa.. (-.-")

ok. off for now~